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An open letter to Dodie

I know this is something very different to what I normally post but I’ve wanted to do this for a while. I honestly don’t know where to start with this, there’s so much I want to be able to get across in this but I’m not very good at putting thoughts into words so I’m not sure how this will turn out but here goes. 

I found your YouTube channel in October 2015 I believe after seeing you in one of Evan’s videos and the most recent song on your channel was “Down” and that was where my love for you started. Hearing “Down” after a year long struggle with my own mental health really couldn’t have come at a better time, for the first time in a long time I felt like somebody understood how I was feeling and remember just crying my eyes out. To this day, almost 4 years later that song still hits me and I reserve it for when I’m feeling incredibly sad and need to cry, thankfully it’s been a while since I last listened to it. Since 2015 I have been to two of your concerts once in 2018 and once this year, they will forever remain 2 of the best days of my life, even though I don’t have a big group of friends to go with like some people and I usually end up dragging my family members with me, I still manage to feel so included when everyone is singing along, I really love the audience you have created and couldn’t be happier to have been a part of that.

As I already explained your songs have had a massive impact on me but the one that has had the biggest impact on my life is definitely “Secret for the mad” which is why I decided to get the lyric “It’ll all make sense again” tattooed onto my arm as a constant reminder that it will, in fact, be okay in the end. I’d hate to think how many times I’ve listened to this song whether that be on the way to school as I was thinking about quitting my A-levels because it was causing me to feel so bad or when I decided to drop out of uni for a year or even when I lost my job a few months ago it has always been there. I know these seem like small things and they are but that kind of ties in with the fact that although the things I just mentioned are kinda shitty I will never feel as low as I did the year before discovering your music. During that year (I was 14/15) I was really struggling with school it made me so anxious to even go in I hated the environment so much and coincidentally stayed at home in bed and never wanted to leave. It got to the point where I did actually start to think about suicide and ‘self harmed’ (I still use this term lightly as I don’t know how to classify it as it never felt that serious in comparison to what It could have been). That period of my life still terrifies me and I never want to go back to that and when I can feel myself slipping, both the fear and knowing that I came out of the other side before thanks to your songs will always manage to make me pull myself together. Therefore I will be forever grateful that I found you when I did and that you are able to serve as a constant reminder to not only me but many others that even though things are bad now they won’t always be. 

I have always felt guilty when it comes to discussing my mental health as I know what I feel is nothing in comparison to what some people have dealt with so I never really speak to anyone about these things/have never asked for help so your music way a way for me to silently deal with what I was feeling and having your words tattooed on me was something I knew I needed ever since I heard “Secret for the mad” over 2 years ago and I’m so happy I’ve finally done it. So thank you.

Chloe x

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Recent reads June/July 2019

Hi!Hope you’re all good. Sorry I haven’t written for so long I’ve recently started a new job so Have been kinda busy. Now that I’ve settled in I’m going to try to get back to writing these posts. Rather than doing a June wrap up because it’s a bit late now I thought i would do more of a recent reads so I’m going to talk about the last 5 books I’ve read and haven’t really spoken about.

The flatshare by Beth O’leary ⭐⭐⭐⭐

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I’ve been really in the mood for adult romance recently and there’s so many good ones around at the moment so when I saw a signed edition in Waterstones I had to grab it and can say I was definitely not disappointed. This follows the story of Tiffy and Leon who share a flat and also a bed but have never actually met because they’re never in the flat at the same time so instead they communicate in notes and consequently start to develop a relationship. I really enjoyed this and there’s so much more in this than just the romance which I wasn’t expecting going in so that was a nice surprise.

Little monsters by Kara Thomas ⭐⭐⭐.5

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I picked this book up on audio and read it in one day because it was so easy to be invested in. I haven’t read many young adult thrillers/mysteries and I know they can be pretty hit or miss so I wasn’t sure what to think going into this but I did really enjoy getting so involved in this and couldn’t put it down. This book has major Pretty little liars vibes and I was so here for it as that is one of my favourite shows ever, the ending of this had me so shook I thought I’d figured it all out but NOPE I was so wrong,

I let you go by Clare Mackintosh ⭐⭐⭐

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This wasn’t one of the best thrillers I’ve ever read but like I said it’s not a genre I read an awful lot of although I am wanting to get more into the genre so I’m testing the waters. I did like this whilst I was reading it but I feel that it is a very forgettable read, It’s only been a week or so since I finished and I’ve already forgotten a lot of the details. I did appreciate that this book was set in England as it’s not something I see very often and really like when I do see it. I think the story from the detectives point of view was my least favourite bit I kind of wanted to skip these chapters at some points, I’m not sure if detective stories are my cup of tea.

The diary of a young girl by Anne Frank ⭐⭐

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Okay so I feel really bad rating this book so low but I just really struggled to get through this. Me and historical fiction have a difficult relationship but seen as this is non fiction I though I might enjoy it more but no It might have been even worse. I find the whole topic of the holocaust really interesting and do want to learn more about it but I don’t think this is the best way to consume this information because it was just so hard to get through, so disjointed and I couldn’t keep track of anything but I didn’t really care to be honest.

Wundersmith by Jessica Townsend ⭐⭐⭐⭐

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I LOVE THESE BOOKS SO MUCH. I really enjoyed both of the books in this series series so far but I would have to say this one is slightly better than the first one. I adore the characters in these books so much and I know it gets compared to Harry #potter a lot but I firmly believe it gives off the same vibes and feel that same immersion I feel when I read both series. I loved that the stakes were heightened in this one and that because we already knew the already knew the world it was so easy to get back into the story.

Let me know what books you’ve been reading recently and I will try to get back to this blogging thing x

Chloe

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May wrap up

Hi! Welcome to my first blog post I hope you’re all doing well. Seen as it is the end of May i thought i would share with you all the books I read this month, thankfully i had a good reading month this month i was worried it would be difficult to keep up the pace after i read so many books in April thanks to the OWL’s readathon which I participated in for the first time and did surprisingly well!

Overall stats

  • Books read – 8
  • Total pages – 2726
  • DNF’s – 2
  • Books acquired – 7

Books read

The fault in our stars by John Green ★★★★.5

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I have wanted to re-read an annotate this book for a while now and after the OWL’s I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to do so. Upon my re-read I discovered that I still absolutely love this story and all of the characters, especially Isaac and his sense of humour. while I recognise that this book has some differing opinions it will always have a special place in my heart as it was one of the first books I decided to pick up of my own accord back in 2013 and I am therefore forever grateful to this book and John Green for changing my reading life. To me this is one of his best books {besides Turtles all the way down} as the story and characters are more developed and I feel that the plot is much stronger and engaging compared to some of his other books. I will say however that after this re-read I did find Augustus to be a little annoying and pretentious at times but overall I wholeheartedly love this story and it was the perfect preparation for my trip to Amsterdam later on in the month.

We were liars by E. Lockhart ★★★.5

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I picked this book up sort of on a whim as it was cheap on Amazon but ended up mostly enjoying it. I thought that the writing style was well done, it was very metaphorical and therefore were some parts I had to re-read to fully grasp what was going on but overall this wasn’t a huge issue for me. I was completely surprised by the twist at the end I didn’t see it coming at all and would be really interested to go back and pick up on the clues alluding to the ending because it was done so cleverly. The only thing that I feel stopped me from enjoying this book more was the characters, I felt that they were a little bland and therefore I didn’t feel an emotional attachment to any of them, due to this the book didn’t have as strong of an impact on me as I know it has with some people.

The hating game by Sally Thorne ★★★★★

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I absolutely adored this book, it’s the first adult romance I’ve ever read and it certainly won’t be the last. I loved Josh as a character I thought that he was really well developed and I loved that he had so much more to his personality instead of just being a typical male love interest, he is my new favourite character. I can’t completely say the same for Lucy, she was a good character but I didn’t connect to her quite as much but nevertheless I still adored every second of their relationship to the point of tearing up at the end. I have nothing bad to say about this book I just need my own workplace romance ASAP please.

Strange the Dreamer by Laini Taylor DNF

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I have had this book on my radar for a while and was initially really excited to read this book however I didn’t enjoy this as much as everybody else seems to. I decided to DNF this book at page 198 as it just felt far too slow for me. I was only invested in one of the characters perspectives but even so felt that the story wasn’t going anywhere and that it would be a really slow read that I didn’t want to waste my time on. Sadly I had already bought the sequel so they will both be finding a new home soon enough.

The great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald ★★★.5

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I had previously watched the movie before reading the book and didn’t particularly enjoy that so I was apprehensive when going into this book but I have been wanting to read more classics so I thought it was worth a shot and ended up really enjoying my time reading this one in the end. Although this is a classic I found the writing style to be easy to digest and not as intimidating as other classics I’ve read in the past so I really appreciated that aspect. I also found the characters to be what really made this book for me, I really connected with Nick as well as Gatsby himself (we need to protect Nick at all costs} they both just completely melted by heart and I love them a lot. The ending hit me hard in the feels too I was not ready for that!

This savage song by V.E. Schwab ★★★★.5

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This was also a re-read for me but I wanted to give it another chance so I could continue with the duology and I’m so glad I did because I was so much more invested this time around. I loved the premise of this story so much and felt that it beautifully represented the world we live in today and the idea of monsters wanted to be human was wonderful to me. August is such a precious character and you forget his nature and you realise that people don’t fit in to the moulds or stereotypes of what people expect them to. I also loved learning about all the different types of monsters and the history of the city it made me feel like I was completely in the world and the story, making me eager to continue onto the final book in this series. I really have no complaints with this book it just didn’t feel like a 5 star read for me, probably because the shades of magic series is my favourite thing ever.

Our dark duet by V.E. Schwab ★★★★

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As I mentioned I was excited to finish this duology so I did exactly that! I didn’t enjoy this one quite as much as I did the first one, for me the plot didn’t go exactly where I thought it would and I found August to be slightly annoying in the second book with some of the decisions he made but i still loved him overall. The ending completely shocked me, I was not prepared for that but I did actually like the way it ended I thought it made perfect sense. I really love this series as a whole and love Victoria Schwab even more, I can’t wait to read the villains series at some point in the near future.

Alice’s adventures in wonderland by Lewis Carroll ★★★

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I am ashamed to say I had never read this book until this month and I have to say I did really enjoy it but would definitely want to re-read this book physically at some point in the future as I listened to the audiobook whilst doing other things so didn’t pay full attention to it and because it is such a strange book I feel it needs more of my attention to fully appreciate it. I did however really enjoy the lightheartedness and whimsy of this story and it was exactly what I needed at the time. I loved finally be able to understand and read some of the iconic scenes/lines that everyone associates with this classic and know for definite I will read this many more times and maybe buy a better edition with the beautiful illustrations.

The strange and beautiful sorrows of Ava Lavender by Leslye Walton DNF

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I know unpopular opinion here but I had to DNF this one at the halfway point, I just couldn’t get into the writing style it read like a historical fiction novel which is my least favourite genre, every single one I’ve read I was bored by and the same applied here. I also feel like the title and explanations I’ve heard of this book are inaccurate as we don’t actually meet Ava herself until a long way into the book and it just felt like a domestic story about all these women’s lives which I really didn’t care about at all. I really wanted to love this book and thought I would but this is the second time I have tried to read it and was just to bored both times so unfortunately I don’t think this one is for me.

Wonderstruck by Brian Selznick ★★★★★

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This book was absolutely perfect and I’ve hardly heard anyone talk about it, you’re all missing out on this one. This book is told half in text and half in pictures as one of the characters, Rose, is deaf and it adds to the story perfectly, I loved how the pictures went over a few pages zooming in on the details so that you can really take the time to understand and appreciate everything in them. It was amazing to see the emotions etc in picture form and it made it have such a bigger impact on me. This is a children’s book but I thoroughly believe it can be appreciated by everyone and everyone will take something different from the story. I have been looking for more books that feature disabled characters as i am partially sighted myself and this was exactly what i wanted and i will think about this book for a long time to come.

Tell me what you read this month or if you’ve read any of these books I’d love to discyss them with you. Thanks for reading x

Chloe

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